Just an infatuation....

I came out of the room grumbling. The authorities were handling my documents very roughly and the pile was in a mess. "Anyway," I thought, "Now that I had submitted it to them, it was their responsibility." I walked out of the corridor door and tried calling on of my seniors. He had said that he would be in the college campus. It was his college and I was there for submitting my documents for admission. The interview was scheduled for next week.
The phone rang and rang and rang, he didn't pick up. I waited for a while.
My phone said, "1 new message."
"In class. Carry on. We will meet next time."

I turned towards the pathway.
"Excuse me!"
"Sweet voice," I thought.
I rotated 90 degrees.
"Are you from this city?" she asked.
"Yes..." I said.
"Did you get the domicile certificate?"
I was staring at her face.
"uh.... yes yes I did," I said.
"For how many years have they given it?"
"hmm.. for.. for.. about 5 years," I dont know why i wasn't confident.
"I have stayed here since the past 15 years but still got only for 5 years," she said.
"That's the format. They give only for five years" I said confidently.
"Oh is it? then its fine" and she gave a smile and kept looking at me.
I returned back the smile, gathered some courage and asked, "What's your name?"
She told hers and asked mine, I told mine.
"See you then, I have to go and submit all my papers. she said and left.
As I walked out of the campus, her face, voice and accent were still lingering in my mind. I looked up the interview call list and found out her full name. I don't know why.

It was the first day of the interview. I looked for her and couldn't find her. I found myself in group 3 but couldn't see her name under the same group on the notice board. I was sure I hadn't seen it properly and just ran through the names. "There were 7 groups and hence the probability of she being in my group was 1/7," I calculated. Just before the prayer started, she walked in. She saw me and she smiled. I didn't expect that. She came and stood in front of me. I realized the event had favoured the probability of 1/7.
So for the next two days, we were assigned many many tasks. Surprisingly, and subgroup which was made always had both of us together. We talked a lot, got to know each other well, noticed and laughed over the fact of we being in the same group all the time. At the end of two days, we looked at each other. We knew that we had a strong bond built between us just in two days. I asked her mobile number and she gave. As I walked out of the campus, I summarized to myself what all I knew about her.

• She was a combination of all the good points I had seen in separate people. One of my friends is very beautiful, another has a sweet voice, another had an excellent accent, another was caring and considerate. She had all these qualities together in her.
•  She was two years older to me.
• She was a celebrity!!! She had told me, "Few commercials, one reality show, a rejected film offer and few modelling sessions!" 

"Oh my God!" I thought to myself. I looked up her name on Facebook. She had her own fan-page! With over a thousand likes! "This lady's damn popular, but so humble and gentle."

When the results were out, I was in, she wasn't. I couldn't understand how. She had done better than me. I called her up, consoled her and from then on, we talk a lot on calls, texts and chats.

I know this isn't anything more than an infatuation because love at first sight is just fiction according to me....

Whatever it is, friendship is what i believe in. Strengthening it, turning it into a different kind should happen automatically and mutually.....

People.....

"This is the bus stop where we have to get down," said my teacher.
 We alighted the bus and moved towards the institute where I had to take 2 classes for kids in his absence the next week. I, being the senior most student, had to do atleast this in return to what sir had done for me since the past 7 years. To avoid the embarrassment of being kicked out of the institute for saying "I am the teacher today and all of you have to listen to me" , I was accompanying him to be introduced to the kids and the staff.
"And this is where I have my tea and snacks," he said as he pointed to a small shop just ahead of the bus stop. So we went to the shop and ordered two cups of tea. After we had finished, the shopkeeper asked us to pay 24 bucks. My teacher had 20 and i had to give 4 more to satisfy the lean tall malnourished guy. Hence i took out my wallet and paid. We thanked him and left without noticing the orange coloured ear phones which had fallen from my pocket as i had taken out the wallet.
After being introduced, i left the institute. As i walked down the road, i frantically looked for my earphones and then i realised that i had dropped them. I ran back to the shop and asked Mr. Malnourished. He said "Was that yours? One of my friends picked it up and took it with him. I will get it from him and return it. Come back in 2 days." I did not know whether to believe him or not but i had no other option. I thanked him and left.
The next week, i again reached the same shop and asked him hoping for a positive reply. He said, "My friend seems to have misplaced it." On further inquiry, he said, "Let me call him up now and ask."
Hearing only one side of the conversation, I understood that his friend said he would return it as soon as he finds it. I knew this was a lie. I asked Mr. Malnourished for Mr. Lier's phone number but he said, "It would be wrong on my part to give you his number," and lighted a cigarette for himself. I was getting late for my class and i left. After the class, I went there and asked him for his number. He angrily said, "see dude, i have my small business here and i am involved full time in this. i cant waste my time on a small piece of wire." I called up my teacher and told him everything. He said that he would talk to Mr. Malnourished the succeeding week and try to get my earphones.I sat back feeling very depressed and angry that i had lost my favourite ear phones and my bday gift from mom :'(
Today I called up my teacher and he said that Mr. Lier had disappeared and not to be seen as reported by Mr. Malnourished.
This was pissing off. Now even he had started lying.
This nature of people I hate. I don't object on him picking it up, I don't object on him taking it home but once the true owner is known , it should be returned to him. Being true to oneself is more important than possessing any luxury. I don't mind losing the 300-400 bucks which my mom spent on it, but what bothers me is the society. This dishonest society only looks at its personal gains rather being true to oneself.

A contrasting incident at the gym today...
I had just reached my gym. I was putting my shoes on as I revised my workout.
"First 200 calories on cross trainer, then I had chest and biceps workouts scheduled for today. Bench press, incline press, peck deck fly and cable cross over for chest and incline curl ,cable curl and preacher's curl for biceps"
I then gave my mobile and wallet at the reception and then started my workout.
After an hour and a half, with my respective muscles crying, I asked the manager for my wallet and mobile. He gave me my mobile and showed me a wallet asking if it was mine. It was a similar one but not mine. He looked for another in the drawer but did not find any. He said it might have got exchanged with another member. We opened the wallet which we had to look for an identity card. There was none. There were about 400 bucks. I recalled mine had 750, that got me tensed. Then we went through the members' list who had come today within the last 2 hours. After lots of thoughts,elimimations and discussions, we narrowed down to three members. The manager then called the first one. This half of the conversation sounded good. After the call, I was told that I will have my money and wallet in 10 minutes. I was relieved that some goodness was still left in the world. In 10 minutes, I had my money, my wallet and my happiness. I also got a drop half way back home by the same guy who had taken my wallet by mistake. These kind of people o respect and appreciate.

One more set of people -- they get care, they get help, they get love whenever they want from the right kind of people but they reject it. They say "please leave us alone, don't care for us," without realizing what they are going to miss and what they would be able to do with the help. They refuse to think of changing their mind about certain issues which others say they may be doing wrong.They refuse to believe that others are suggesting things which will help them improve as a person, as a student/worker and as an achiever . For them, I would say "do whatever u want. When u realize u needed the help love, people who truly want to give it will always be ready to".

So in all, I wish to see an open minded, honest, trust worthy and progressive society which may be just fictional in the present scenario. :)

My Little Sis :)

So much chaos, so much confusion.. People did not know whom to believe and whom not to. This was when i started speaking to this girl. I instantly knew she doubted me, she believed other people who spoke non sense about me. But i knew my principles very well and pretty much stuck to them. One of them -- "Don't convince people about ur goodness. If they trust u, they wont believe others. "

"She's very pretty," 

This was my answer to a friend's question when he asked me what i thought about her looks. 

Did that mean i have a crush on her???? I don't think so, but an eavesdropper thought so and told her. She avoided me and i slowly began to accept the fact that it wasn't worth spending time trying to talk to her and convince her.

 But one day suddenly i receive a call from her number. I hesitatingly pick it and she says "Wassuupppp??" in her usual sweet manner. Though we did not talk about the crush issue (We haven't yet and i dont think we will ever), the conversation ended after an hour and I knew everything was sorted out.

From then on, we haven't fought even once, haven't had any difference of opinions. We pull each others' legs, have lots of fun and force each other to put in the best in academics. May be i haven't found a better friend than her. 

Over the past one year, we have supported each other through thick and thin and pulled each other up even from the deepest pits we have come across in our lives. Being an year older to her, I have faced the terror of stress, examinations and emotional imbalance a touch more than her. This always makes me guide her through the tough paths and give her my shoulder to weep on and share everything she wants to, irrespective of whether she's right or wrong. And I'm sure i will unconditionally help her and support her throughout.

Slowly we started considering each other as siblings and that brought us closer. Being an elder brother, I am pretty protective about her. Though she keeps saying "I'm BIG", she knows that she will always be my little sister. :) 

Now, i have given her a task, a challenge - to either match or surpass me in academics and get to the same or a better institute than mine. I know she will successfully complete it but she doesn't know she can. (that's actually why i have given it to her)

In all, she's one of the best friends i have ever had... may be more than a friend, more than a sister, someone very very special and close..:)

Love u a lot sis :) 

Me....

After a very tough span of two years, full of my expectations, elders' expectations and dreams, I'm yet to get over the fact that I don't have to study so much for the next 3 months atleast!
I MAY not have achieved what I dreamt of, but the satisfaction of trying my best is a very good feeling.
Few people treat me as their role models, few take me to be their guides, few consider me as their friend, but the worst part is few use me as a help, as a support when they fall and ignore, dismiss and say "Takhliyah" when I try to push them further up when they are already climbing. But as far as i know about myself, i am a person who will never say "I'm busy. I cant help" to anyone. It was written in my horoscope too that i will grow up to be a helpful person, sometimes horoscopes also turn out to be true (may be a chance factor). Whatever it is, I will help and wish good for all my friends irrespective of how they treat me or value my efforts. That's my nature and its pretty hard to change.
I am also very focused on what I do. I remove everything that takes me away from my goals... lakshya ko har haal mein paana hain... I have made pretty tough decisions to keep myself away from distractions in life and I am proud I did so.. no regrets...
I also believe in 'Work is worship' and not 'Worship is work'. Serving the society is the best form of worship i feel, and so does my 'first hero'. Maybe this is the ideal mindset for a future doctor...
Thats a brief intro about myself as i start blogging today...